Reasons

This time i'm looking for reasons for my existance.. why am i put here in this cruel world... is it because for the world to spin it has to have life? but when there is life, there is sufferings... so whats life? life=sufferings... i doubt anyone here would say that they've never suffered... its just the degree of the sufferings that are different... life was never meant to be easy.. but i do agree that when someone is suffering, someone isnt suffering... for example.. in a restaurant.. the chef/cook is suffering trying his best to create a delicous meal... while the customer enjoys eating it.. while husbands try their very best to support the family.. the family has an easy life.. when a poor kid offers his meal to another poor kid.. he ends up giving his only meal... there is always a reason to why people do things... but there is always this.. someone always sacrifices something for someone... in economics we learn this.. the opportunity cost... lesson for the day..

anyways here i am again.. another night without sleep.. there is always a reason for it but yes i couldnt sleep. i'm sure when i'm not sleeping someone else is.. ironic? hehe but yes i've my own reasons.. didnt shower yet in 2days.. which i dunno why.. not in the mood i guess.. but well anyways i'll shower after writing this entry.. nothing much happened to me yesterday. had to work till late cuz the cook was on his day off. so i have to manage the floor by myself with the help of aunty. lucky there wasnt that many customers. if not i would be dead tired by now. but it was still tiring as i've to wash dishes and clean the kitchen too. but i had a good supper. had a beer as well. was relieved that i reach home though. had a couple of beers more at home cuz i dont have anymore juice and cant afford any. only had beer at home. but its all good as i needed some beer. at this moment i'm having my 7th beer since 4am. so its like 7 beers in 12 hours which isnt bad. but its bad cuz i've been having it since morning. which reminds me. i've to clean my room too. sigh guess i'll do it tomorrow. another reason for that. its been a long time since i've clean up. well i better be going now. 1 more and i've to get to work.. sigh.. ever the same..