looking at the stars

the best thing at night is that when u go out at 12-5am in the morning there is total darkness and no one would be around to bother you. not that everyone is troublesome but you have the whole world to yourself.. i guess some people will never know how does it feel sometimes when some people want to be alone sometimes.. i've read a story about this kid who was put aside from all his friends and family.. its a sad story but he bears all his misery and sadness in himself without letting other people know about his sufferings.. he doesnt like to bother the people he likes and love... but the expression the writer puts it is so touching that you can feel that this kid isnt going through a good time in his life.. it isnt anyone's fault but he too separates himself from everyone else and do not mix around much. i guess he doesnt want to give trouble to other people or he just isnt the type making friends.. maybe he even thinks that everything he does is wrong.. but thats life i'm afraid.. the best part is that the kid sits on a hill near his home and stares at the stars.. he looks at them and doesnt think about all those sad things.. he smiles and cries to himself.. you may think that he is crying because he is sad.. but i think that he is crying because he is happy that it is the only place in the world that he can run away to let go of his sadness.. eventhough sitting there all alone he is happy. because he already knows that he is alone.. he already knows where he belongs and admits it. nothing is perfect and nothing anyone can do about it.. i like that story because it is true... it tells us about what life really is... and to think about life being beautiful is nonsense.. we go through a difficult life to reach our goals.. we do have goals and dreams and sometimes we do reach that dream. but towards that dream we go through hardships.. some of us even barely make it through and suffer alot.. i didnt read through to the very end because i never believed in happy endings.. if there were happy endings the world would be a better place by now.. no killings, no crying, no sadness, no cheating... everyone would be happy.. but not everyone is.. we all know that there is happiness out there.. but we dont know is that where there is happiness there is sadness.. in economics we learn that if we gain something.. someone else out there losses. thats all i have to say.. to all those readers out there.. i know my blogs are all full of sadness and misery.. but i've nothing else to write cuz i too am looking at the stars..